I am a person that believes that messages are all around us and that when we are conscious of what is happening to us inside and outward then we can "read" these messages a lot clearer.
Yesterday I was meditating on the fact that my new used van that was given to me by my spiritual father is leaking oil and that to be able to drive it (until I get it fixed) I have to make sure that I check the level of the oil consistently and top up the oil container so that it does not go dry and ruin my engine, If this happens then I no longer will have a mode of transportation to get me to where I need to be. I was also parking in one specific area each night as this is when the oil would leak and each morning I could see the stain of oil that had drained throughout the night as a reminder as I drove away. Now this became a consistent thought always in the back of my mind as I drove the van only to places of necessity and limited my other travel until I could get a mechanic to fix the issue.
So as I began to ask myself what I was learning about this I had revelation of two things; first something was causing a leakage in my life. There were things that were being stolen from me in subtle ways that was not allowing me to stay filled up and to run efficiently and effectively. I was being drained and having to constantly fill up and be concerned about ultimately being shut down.
Secondly I was learning about the power of staying filled. My mechanic explained to me that my vehicle only drains oil when it is not moving. You see when the van is in motion the oil is taken out of the pan and distributed though out all of the parts including the engine to keep it running. The oil was being used for its intended purpose and this was "good". But when the van was parked and everything cooled down the oil would settle in the pan again where there was a hole that was causing the oil to slowly but steadily seep out to the ground below. I kept having to buy more oil and keep a supply on hand as everyday was another emergency and I couldn't trust that I would have enough oil to even get me to a store where I could buy more and fill up again. I was sad for the waste but in the end I was happy for the lesson.
When I am being used for my intended purpose I stay filled and this is "good" and how God intended it to be when He created me and put me on this earth. But when I have things in my life that cause the "good" to seep out and suck me dry this is not so good, I have to work twice as hard to stay filled, to accomplish my purpose and this even slows me down as fear causes me to park myself and not venture to travel too far, for too long. After meditating on this I repented to the Lord and asked Him to help me to make getting the van fixed a priority as it was a gift from Him.
I began to think about this in terms of other people and pondered about how many people are leaking physically, emotionally, spiritually, and even socially? They are running on dry and many have even shut down and parked and have no oil to start up again. There engines have ceased up from improper usage. There vehicle is broken and needs fixing. They are leaving stains everywhere.
Wow! one little oil spill taught me all that. Well it doesn't end there, today it began to rain and as the
water mixed with oil spot on the street where I park each night, something amazing happened. A rainbow formed on the ground. I looked at it as it began to spread over my street I was near tears thinking of the goodness of God. My mistake and my lack of whatever, when mixed with the water of His words remind me of the promise of God to His people. He can take my lessons , my mistakes, my imperfections, my lack and make something beautiful out of it. This truth was seared on my heart again. My life may sometimes seem like a series of blotched, screw ups as I am sure you may have felt once in a while, but when I remind myself of what His words say then every mistake is made into a rainbow of promise.
So today remember, there is no rainbow without rain, no joy without sorrow, no peace without pain, no love without hate, no good without bad, no up without down, no filled without empty.
Let him change it for you today
Note* - In symbolic terms oil is a metaphor for the anointing or Holy Spirit and water is a symbol for the word of God
Charmaine November 2015
Words of truth, encouragement and enlightenment to illuminate your spirit and life
Friday, November 6, 2015
Saturday, October 24, 2015
My Love Affair
The more I think about it the more I can’t remember. I’m not really sure the moment that it began, or exactly how I got
here, I can’t figure out what happened or which pathway led me to this point
and conclusion but I am sure of this one thing… I am in love with WORDS!
Maybe it began when I was a small infant and
I realized that with my first spoken words there was an instant reaction of
delight and joy from others. It could
have been just the way my parents responded to my simple collection of words as
a young girl, as I arranged them in my mind to begin to understand the new
world that I was living in or as a teenager when I was able to use my words to
express all the hidden feelings and emotions that were causing much inner conflict.
Whenever it started I just know this one thing, WORDS captured me and
mesmerized me and made me feel alive and full of joy.
I am and always will be a talker. Don’t be
mistaken I am not your average everyday person that loves to talk, I am an
extremely radical, wake up in the morning talking and don’t stop all day, even
if I have to talk to myself kind of talker. Statistics say that the average
person says 50, 000 words each day to themselves, well I say 500, 000. This is all
because of my relationship with WORDS.
I love the way that WORDS roll off my
tongue and wrap themselves around another person’s ear and cause them to locate their own words
of response and then the conversation begins as the words intertwine this beautiful thing
of communication and understanding develops and begins to blossom. I find this
to be one of my greatest joys in life as I open myself up and share my words
with another living human being. I have purposely chosen to speak daily to the
universe and use words to declare and decree what I believe or desire to see
manifest.
In the Bible it says that “the WORD became flesh and dwelt among us” The idea and concept of this excites me
and as I read the words of Jesus my heart skips a beat as I underline and highlight
certain words that reach out and grab my attention. Words like believe, faith,
love, joy and heart are all circled in multiple colors in my personal bible. I
love the way that the logos or written words become rhema or living words to me
as I receive a new revelation that promises to transform the way I think and
the thoughts that are constantly swirling in my mind. My mind is forever full
of words that I have embraced and that have transformed into my beliefs that
have eventually become me. I love these words that have made me who I am.
Words can be dangerous like swords or soft
like feathers, they can harm or they can soothe, it all depends on how we choose
to use them. I love the great power and strength I have found in my affair with
words. If I choose my words wisely and not let them escape before their time
they will become a cultivated treasure that no one can steal away.
I
love words so much that I have them inscribed on my walls, hidden in secret
places for me to daily discover, printed on scented candles, cups, plaques and
painted on canvas with unusual creativity. WORDS jump out at me when I go to my
kitchen, bathroom, bedroom, laundry room, living room and even when I open the
front closet as I exit out the front door. They creep up on me and cause me to
remember a familiar memory.
My bookcase is one of my greatest furniture
acquisition as it is a five tier shelved beauty that holds a multitude of
amazing books of learning, inspiration, memory, history, language, and general interest.
There are authors of all genres, ages, concepts and ideas represented in this seven
by three feet use of space. I love each individual
book because they contain words that I have held dear. These are the words that I have allowed to
enter my mind, my thoughts, my heart and my life. They still whisper to me as I remember how they delicately touched
me.
I sneak away in the middle of the day and
meditate over WORDS, I purse my lips and receive a kiss from the WORDS of life
that leave my mouth, I rendezvous in the most elaborate places with books and
phrases and spoken thoughts all to get a feeling of sensation as WORDS love on
me and I love on them.
When I hold WORDS in my hands and smell the
fragrance of the pages as they turn there is an emotion that is both nostalgic
and futuristic. As I romantically unite with every person that has universally
read or will ever read these words as they serenely float around softly in the
atmosphere.
I am made of WORDS and words are shaping me
as I write, words are allowing me to connect with people in all spheres of
influence, in many different parts of the world, words are revealing my
travels, my future desires, words are my friends, my family , my lover.
I am in a love affair with WORDS.
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Monday, October 19, 2015
The sign of a Good Mother
I have recently begun my certification as a Labour and Bereavement Doula and had the privilege of using this profession in my volunteer work at Vanier Correctional facility. I had volunteered at Vanier teaching Inspirational dance to the women for 5 years and was transitioning to help the many pregnant inmates in Vanier so that no incarcerated mother would have to birth alone. Being a mother of 5 children and having been an unofficially Doula for numerous family and friends for the past 20 years was an added benefit.
One of my first clients was a beautiful young First Nations woman who was pregnant with her first child. I was told by the case worker and the NILO on staff that this unborn infant had FAS (Fetal Alcohol Syndrome) and the ultrasound showed that it was missing limbs and would most likely die shortly after birth due to the many harmful defects. The mother had even gone into liver failure during her pregnancy due to excessive abuse of alcohol.
Due to this and among other factors her baby was going into the custody of CAS (Children Aid Society) as soon as it was born.
These circumstances were discouraging to me as I began to visit with this young woman to give her emotional support and childbirth information to prepare her for birthing her baby within custody.
We began to pray for her baby and that it would be born perfect and also for her emotional well-being having to release her baby 24 hrs after giving birth.
As I do with all of my clients I had encouraged her to give everything that she could to her unborn infant even while she was in custody.
So she took a prenatal class with me to help her with the pregnancy, labor and delivery. We created a birth wish list stating her choices for a healthy natural labor and delivery. She even decided to breastfeed her baby right after birth to give the baby the colostrum that it needed.
In her ninth month she was given another ultrasound and it came back with the baby in perfect health. We rejoiced at this miracle and prepared ourselves for the difficult delivery and release of this baby. She also found out that it was a boy.
At first she was unhappy that her baby was going to be with foster parents and that she would be coming back to the correctional facility fairly soon after giving birth, but she was learning different coping strategies to deal with the stress and seemed to be doing okay.
During this time I learned from her social worker that she was also in an abusive destructive relationship and this was compounding the reason that CAS was not willing to release her infant into family care.
I spoke to her about her situation and asked if she would be willing to do everything to be able to keep her baby and she seemed compliant but yet still hesitant. They were requiring her to enter a long term treatment facility after her release and also that she sever all ties with her boyfriend.
As we began to talk further I learned that in reality she was not willing to comply with the terms set out in the agreement to keep her baby and that she was considering adoption.
Needless to say as a prison Doula my job was not to have emotional baggage about the choices and situations that our clients face, but to fully support them through the childbirth process with the outcome of healthy mother, healthy baby- awesome birth!
I did just that and watched as this baby was born healthy and this mother gave of herself selflessly, through eleven hours of labor, birth , breastfeeding, babies first bath, diaper changes, dressing in new clothes and blanket for the taking of photos as final memories.
She would love on this baby right up till the moment that the guards removed her from the hospital back to the correctional facility and CAS came and took her baby to be with foster parents, We both had such a peace during this entire ordeal and when she signed the papers for the baby to be adopted I knew that this was her being a good mother.
It brought me back to a passage in 1 Kings 3: 16-22 where two mothers come to King Solomon to settle a dispute about one of their babies that had died throughout the night. Both mothers claimed that the remaining baby was theirs and in his wisdom to help make the decision King Solomon says that he would take a sword and cut the remaining baby in half and each mother can have half of the baby. On hearing this decision the true mother not wanting any harm to come to her infant, decides to give the baby to the other woman, This act of selflessness is the evidence of a good mother. Solomon returns the living child to the rightful mother.
Adoption many times is this same selfless act of knowing that to keep the child you may do it more harm than good and to give it away would take the love of a good mother. You would rather lose your baby than make it a half of a what it should really be entitled to. In making this very difficult decision you are in fact acting like a true mother, who always has the best interest of her child before her own.
My first prison birth would teach me an invaluable lesson and a few days later help me to pray for a Christian couple that after many years of infertility had recently adopted an infant and during the 7 day required waiting period the young single birth mother would change her mind and take the baby back to live with her. This couple was grieving the loss of this decision and as I began to pray for them this same story would come flooding back to my mind. Miraculously a month later she too would decide to become a good mother and do what she felt was best not for her but for the well- being, safety and security of her infant baby, This couple would be allowed to parent this child because a mother again would surrender her rights and release her baby into what she felt was best.
I had begun a winding unpredictable journey with many new lessons to be learned and experienced as I received a complete paradigm shift about what a good mother really is.
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5 Tips to a Clean Slate (How my life as a stool pigeon prepared me to fight temptation)
When I was a young girl I was known in my family as the
stool pigeon. They used to call me by many slang names as well; betrayer,
canary, deep throat, fink, informant, nark, rat, rat fink, snitch, squealer,
stoolie, tattletale, blabbermouth, whistle-blower and even spy. You see my siblings knew that I could not be
trusted to hold any secret attached to our many childhood crimes. The reason
was simple and little did I understand then that this would save me many times
later in my life.
My mother had this very simple rule in our home. If she
found out about something and she asked you to tell the truth she would be more
lenient with her discipline or sometimes beating if you confessed rather than
if you denied it and somehow we all knew she would eventually find out the
story without our confession anyways. Now my mother was like many of the
mothers I knew and she had an uncanny way of finding out the truth like she was
a secret FBI agent with resources worldwide. I don’t really know if it was my conscience,
fear or just wisdom but I found that when I agreed with my mother and asked for
forgiveness for what I did and just received the correction even if it meant a
lashing, it usually was never as bad as what she would do to my siblings.
Now my brothers and my sister om the other hand had one
simple rule- Lie, then deny, deny, deny. I am telling you, my mother would lay
out exactly what we had done play by play and my siblings would deny that they
were ever involved, even after she had gotten a full confession out of me. Now
I only could tell my mother what I had done because my siblings never let me be
involved in the fullness of the crime. You know how when the bank robbers are
robbing a bank, there is this one person who sits outside in the getaway car?
That was me. I was involved with our shenanigans but they never, ever let me
know the details of what was actually done. They knew I would crack under the
pressure of my mother’s voice asking me to tell her the truth. So the less I
knew the better it was. Then I could only confess to the crime that I had committed
which was usually small and didn’t always implicate guilt for my siblings.
Like the time my siblings broke into my mother’s room and
stole some of her precious stash of special herbs. My mother trusted me so I
was made the keeper of the key when she was not home and there was no way they
could have gotten into her room without me. They tricked me by telling me that
they needed to put something back into the room and that if I would open the
door then they would pay me in candy. Well my mother was not fooled and after
only a few minutes of grilling me I squealed like fast tires coming down the
street. I had opened the door for them, I was guilty. Later my brothers gave me
a good beating for snitching.
In my preteen years I did attempt one solo crime that I will
never forget because it became legendary gossip in our family from that day
forward. Once I stole a $100 bill from my mother’s purse to buy a new pair of
white ice skates. All the children at school had a pair and I wanted to go ice
skating with them. My brothers had done this misdemeanor many times and they
never got in trouble because my mother could never tell who had done it. And of
course they would never confess. Well after I took the money my mother was
cussing and screaming at my brothers to give her back her rent stash and the
guilt took me so bad that I cleaned that whole house till it was shining. My
mother knew something was up but before she could even come and ask me I
confessed and gave her back the money crying and begging for her not to whip
me. My siblings teased me about this
all of my life. They were so ashamed of me. I was a disgrace to the family
delinquency.
Fast forward a couple years and this is how I would come to realize
the full impact of what my mother had taught me by allowing me to confess to my
part in my treachery with my family. I began to notice that anytime I did
anything wrong or temptation was at my door that I would find someone of
importance to confess to. I would tell on myself so that there would be no way
I could follow through with the actual act or any future acts of similarity.
Let me give you a few examples. Now please as you read on be careful not to
judge me for the thoughts or decisions that I made that may seem like colossal mistakes
to you. What is it they say "You never
really know what you will do till you walk a mile in someone else`s shoes".
Please note that all names are fiction as to protect the
fellow collaborators identities.
Now Sharon, Tina and I would be talking, ok more like
gossiping about Mary and what we felt she should do. I would feel badly that I
participated in this act as Mary was a close friend but rather than just
privately confess in the confession booth at church to an unseen priest. I
would take it upon myself to go and tell Mary that I had participated in this act
of treason. Now true to what I had done with my siblings I wouldn’t give any
other names as I asked Mary to please forgive me for this indiscretion. Well
you think it would just end there. But in true fashion to gossipers, Tina would
be talking to Mary and begin to gossip about what I had said about Mary, trying
to stir up trouble and disunity. Now Mary would realize who the true friend was
as she first hand witnessed one of the other culprits participating in the act
that I had privately confessed to 3 months prior. I was safe, but Tina and
Sharon on the other hand are no longer friends with Mary.
Another example that could have completely backfired on me was
early in our marriage my husband had a close friend who made a pass at me once
and I asked him to please tell my
husband what had occurred as I knew he had just made a wrong judgement and I
may have even led him on unintentionally. He chose not to take this way of
escape, so rather than letting this jeopardize my marriage I told my best
friend right away and my husband when he returned home from a business trip. We
would later discover that this friend was having numerous affairs on his wife,
but due to the way I handled it I was not among the list of victims.
It gets even better… years later after coming into
relationship with God the Father, Jesus the Son and Holy Spirit my best friend.
I practice a truth that lines up with my mother’s teachings and my new found
faith. In 1 John 1:9 (Voice) it says But if we own up to our sins, God shows that
He is faithful and just by forgiving us of our sins and purifying us from the
pollution of all the bad things we have done. .
I had somehow learned the art of confession, the power of
forgiveness and the beauty of grace all beginning from how my mother handled
her children’s shortcomings and mischievous deeds.
I also understood and fully embraced 1 Corinthians 10:13
(Voice) where it states Any temptation you face will be nothing new.
But God is faithful, and He will not let you be tempted beyond what you can handle.
But He always provides a way of escape so that you will be able to endure and
keep moving forward.
I have learned that my thoughts can lead to my beliefs and my
beliefs can lead to my actions but all of these must line up with what God says
is truth. By the power and conviction of the Holy Spirit I can stop myself
anywhere before the action or even afterward by confessing my error. God by His
sons sacrifice forgives me and my consequence or discipline is always less when
I confess my indiscretions. When I acknowledge my wrongdoing in any situation I
stand a much better chance of being acquitted by the only One whose judgement
truly counts. He also works out the
situation for my good.
So take it from a stool pigeon, better to have others think
badly about you than for you to sear your conscience and to go down the path of
destruction. My encouragement to those of you that are like my siblings and are
choosing to live a life of Lie and Deny, in truth you are only harming
yourself, because the consequences are not the worst thing that can happen to
you, the result of this type of living is separation from Truth. Over a period
of time you will be unable to discern between what is truth and what isn’t. The
lies become so numerous that you cannot unravel them. Others will be unable to
trust you or your motives.
Now please do not mistake me, I am nowhere near sainthood
because I confess my sins. But my slate is cleaned every time I do. So here are
5 tips that can help you to begin again as if those things never happened.
1. Ask God to forgive you for your sins
2. Forgive yourself as you receive His forgiveness through
Jesus sacrifice
3.
Forgive others and judge them not
4.
Ask Holy Spirit to help you to stay sensitive to
truth
5.
Repeat this process daily
Excerpt from Where the Sunflower Grows by Charmaine Hinds
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Thursday, October 15, 2015
Ugly Duckling Beautiful Swan
Last year I had a pivotal moment in my life. I was at a
conference and the guest speaker called me out and spoke to me about being an
ugly duckling and about the jealousy and conflict I had to endure all my life because
of my beauty and that it was now time for me to begin to call forth my tribe
and then and only then would I feel like I truly belonged.
Now I consider myself by the world’s standards a fairly beautiful
woman. Even at 47 I am still very youthful looking. I was a model as a young
woman and if I wanted to I could model again. I have hazel eyes, light clear
skin, full lips and long thick hair. I
am tall, thin and these attributes meet a lot of the standards for outward
beauty. Not to mention I have learned the amazing magic tricks of proper makeup
application and finding the right clothes for my own personal style.
Yet as I heard these words I had a distinct memory
flashback. As a young girl I was unique in my looks, I was mixed race,
hazel/green eyes, large lips, fuzzy thick curly hair, I had an awful over bite,
was tall and skinny for my age and all of this attracted a lot of attention-
good and bad. All of these attributes were just underdeveloped and in time
would become some my best features. In addition to this my single mother was unfortunately
living in poverty so my clothes weren’t fancy and designer. So I considered myself
an ugly duckling. I didn’t feel like I fit into my circumstances, my family and
due to certain abuse issues, even my life.
For those of you that are
not aware of the story of the ugly duckling it tells of a homely
little bird born in a barnyard who suffers abuse from the others around him
until, much to his delight (and to the surprise of others), he matures into a
beautiful swan, the most beautiful bird of all. The story is beloved around the
world as a tale about personal transformation for the better.
As
I seriously pondered this I couldn’t believe that I had forgotten that I used
to feel like I was an ugly duckling as a child and even as a young teenager. It
was because of the amazing changes that had happened within me over the years why
I didn’t even remember this. I felt beautiful! No one that knew me now would
even have any idea that I once felt this way. I even had to call my sister to
clarify some of the memories that were coming back to me.
Truly
the love of God had transformed me into the beautiful woman I was on the inside
and I allowed that to be seen now on the outside. And greater than this I began
not to care if others saw the beauty in me or not. I knew I was beautiful and
of value and that was enough. I walked in this confidence and that was what was
beautiful to so many people.
But
these words were touching another area of my life. Deep inside I had always
felt like I didn’t belong. My thoughts and beliefs were different than my
family, my husband, my church and others, I have always felt so unique and this
had a huge effect on me. It took me 47 years to become comfortable with my identity
and who God made me. To be able to say “I don’t have to change me- I like me!”
This word from this speaker was from God, It was for me to
give me hope. I was going to encounter my Tribe, my Karass, that group of people
that were called to the same purpose as I. After this my inner beacon began to
send out a signal calling out for the ones in the world that were just like me.
I was now ready to attract the right type of people that would help reinforce
who I am by being a mirror for me. This was Gods design. Ducks and Swans are
different and Swans don’t grow well in barnyards trying to become Ducks. It is
possible but in the end the Swan flourishes best in the company and environment
that was always meant for Swans.
So if you are reading this and maybe you have been living in
a barnyard, or you keep seeing Swans and know that though your time of maturity
has not yet arrived, that you are in actuality one of us or maybe like myself
you have had insecurities about your looks and your purpose because you know
you are definitely not just like everyone else. Whatever the situation,
circumstance or emotional state you find yourself in I would like to call forth
your inner Swan to the place where we swim, Join us in the place where we are
free and full of grace. Finally, for all of you ugly ducklings, JUST WAIT… you
are being transformed into a Beautiful Swan.
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Lead Me to that Place of Wide Open Space
I believe that we learn about life not just from formal
education but also from our everyday life interaction. There are lessons to be
learned through nature, relationships and daily observations, if we just tune
ourselves into the multiple messages being spoken to us every day. My husband
and I were travelling to an appointment when all of sudden there seemed to be
traffic. He noticed that we were being funneled and channeled into one lane and
this bottleneck was the cause of us slowing down and delaying us to get to our
desired destination on time.
In his frustration he asked more to himself but still out
loud “Why is the road only one lane on such a busy street?” As I surveyed the area more thoroughly I
realized that they were expanding the road and that to do so they had to
contain the lanes so they could have enough room for the expansion process.
They were going from two lanes to four lanes but before that they had to go to
only one lane. As I shared this out loud I also said “So everyone has to go
through a small space and the inconvenience for a short time so that later
there would be a larger space after the work is completed”.
My husband got a hold
of this internally and with me being a Doula he gave an example that really
resonated with me. He said “It's kind of
like when a baby is being born, they start off small and then they grow until
they fill the space and then they go through a small space (birthing canal) to
be able to come out to the world which is a much wider space”
This spoken
revelation was awesome because it spoke about how growth happens in many areas
in our lives. As human beings we all usually get frustrated when we feel we are
being slowed down or channeled in any given area. It may be happening in our
business, personal life or even spiritual growth. When sometimes in actuality what truly is
occurring is the “growth expansion process”. For us to be able to come out into wide-open spaces sometimes we have to
go through a narrow space so for a time we may feel confined as we prepare to
be birthed into something much bigger. This uneasy, unfamiliar, messy,
uncomfortable and sometimes even painful place may cause many of us to want to
make a U-turn or even plan an easy exit route. But there is a purpose in the
process! A plan in the pain! A destiny
in the delay! We must begin to trust
that we will get to our destination on time and that there is a reason for what
we are going through.
There are now proven studies that children that are brought
into the world by C-section, which is sometimes a short cut into the world,
though may sometimes be necessary, may start life with insufficient intestinal
bacteria flora (microbiomes). These bacteria are known to play a part in
protecting children from developing allergies and children who lack them may be
at higher risk of other health problems.
During a regular vaginal birth infants come in contact with
a rich dose of their mother’s bacteria as they are pressed through the birth
canal. C-section babies don’t get this exposure, which is likely to be vital in
developing the immune system and helping it to mature.
When we relate this process to our everyday life we see that
even the things we don’t understand while we are going through this tight
confined space that they will eventually help to make us stronger and more
immune when we come out into the bigger wider open spaces. If we do not
struggle or resist, or try to circumvent the process no matter how difficult it
may seem. If we yield, resist the fear and just let nature take its course,
then and only then will we enter the other side from one lane to four lanes of
wide open space and freedom.
Tuesday, September 1, 2015
Hope Anchor
Jewelry
and me, we have a special kind of love affair.
It's
very spiritual.
Whenever
God is doing something in me or wanting me to remember an important teaching or
truth he will provide a piece of jewelry as a remembrance.
He has
given me necklaces. pendants, rings, bracelets and brooches all symbolical in
nature.
Sometimes
they are gifts from friends, family, strangers, or new acquaintances, randomly they
are found or even purchased by myself.
So
after sharing this I will now tell you about the latest jewelry piece I
received on a recent trip to Nova Scotia.
As I
said this jewelry finds its way to me via unique circumstances and situations
but one precious friend from Nova Scotia has always stayed sensitive to
the leading of the spirit and every time I have come she has a token from the
Father that she has prayed and sought the God about.
Well
this time He gave her one word "Anchor".
So
on her way to visit with me she looked for a place to purchase an anchor as a
gift. Needless to say along the journey she only came upon one store in
the middle of nowhere in the Rodden hills. It was old country store and she
entered thinking they must definitely have some sort of anchor. To her utter
amazement and surprise the only item they had was an unusual anklet bracelet
with a rhinestone jeweled anchor attached to it. She purchased it for me and
it came in a beautiful box. As she presented it to me she shared the story and
this is the message she wrote in the box.
"Beloved
friend, God is doing a new thing . Not to replace you as an eagle or butterfly
. A new freedom of the assurance that your life is anchored in Him. A deep
peace, unswayable. Let this settle in your spirit."
I
received this lovely gift and sought God for the deeper message He was trying
to give to me . I loved the fact that it was an anklet as it had meaning as it
anchored my feet. Those who know me will understand the great significance in
that message.
When
I got home I was contemplating this gift and my heart overwhelmed with a
gratitude and love for my relationship with God and the security I felt in Him.
I was excited because He had restored my HOPE.
Then
the scripture came to me that my HOPE is anchored in Him. Hebrews 6:19. Then at 2am in the morning these words came to me. It
was a description of the Hope anchor that I am intimate with. It is also
the name of the design of this anchor I had been given, as it has a cross at the top
I’m not a drifting vessel floating aimlessly without
direction
I have been firmly fastened under your arm of protection
You are the Hope that has anchored my soul
This Love has made me whole
Secured me to that Thing that holds me
Yet simultaneously makes me free
You are my safety, my security, my stability and tranquility
My identity is balanced by the weight of understanding who You
are
During the many storms of life You hold me in place – yet still
you give me space
To travel to the true destination
Never anchored by a rope
But secured within the Hope
That I have discovered in You
For I am found in You and You are in me
Where does it begin and where will it end?
Does it matter except that I know this one thing to be true
I am anchored by You…
What a feeling of liberty!
To be grounded and yet
remain free
Hebrew 6:19 We have
this Hope as an anchor for our souls
Charmaine Hinds
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Monday, May 25, 2015
Good Good Father
So I like many other women, have been a girl with Daddy issues. My issues ran
deep and had been compounded in so many ways that to some may seem imaginable.
But I was consistently working my way through them as I came to know God as my
Heavenly Father and Daddy.
God loved me so much and understood my issues, so He did something I would have never dreamed up in all my thoughts. (Your ways are higher than my ways, your thoughts higher than my thoughts) He gave me the most amazing spiritual father and mother.
Now it is important that He gave me both as an influence to show me His true
nature. For in Him is both male and female.(We were made in His image and
likeness)
Well over time my spiritual mum has revealed many things to me. She is both
strong and independent, but she adores my Papa as I call him. And that is
partially due to my Papa being so loving towards her. She remembers me always
and sends me gifts, even though we live provinces away from each other.
Now Papa is so full of love. I miss him all the time and whenever I go
"home" I always run into his arms for a great big hug. He always
holds me tight and whispers in my ear “I missed you girl”.
His love is so genuine and real that it is tangible and I can just let go in
his arms and linger there as he holds me up. I love this feeling. And every
time I have to leave he again hugs me and whispers " I'm so proud of you
girl".
Now my spiritual mum is a true mother and she does all the things a mother would do. she fusses over me, gives me advice, gets excited when good things happen for me and brushes my hair and tells me everything is going to be OK even when it looks like it may not be.
But the thing that lets me know how much she really loves me is that she shares
Papa with me and many others. I never feel like she is jealous in any way
actually I feel the exact opposite, she directs me to him.
I can be so real with this couple. I don't pretend to be something I'm not
because in my heart I somehow know they love me just the way I am. I am blessed
to be one of their many spiritual children.
So here begins my father story.
I was a member of a prayer movement that chose to pray and fast 3
times a day for 30 days believing God for specific things to manifest.
Well it was 4 months later and almost everything had begun to come to pass .
There were only a few I was still waiting on and there was no rush for me. I
believed they too would occur in time.
Well a few weeks ago my spiritual parents called me and we were talking and
they asked me about my transportation and I revealed to them that I didn't
presently own a vehicle. The next thing that happened may seem trivial to many
but to this girl getting over her daddy issues, it meant so much more.
My papa asked out loud “what kind of vehicle do you want?”.
What? You are asking me what type of vehicle I want? I thought in my head.
My spiritual mum repeated the question and told me that papa was going to look
for a car for me.
No one except God had ever asked me that and it was on my prayer list. I began
to hear in my heart God the Father, my Daddy asking me what type of vehicle I needed. I was
so overwhelmed that I just asked for a van big enough to carry all my stuff.
Then about a week later my friend sent me a text about a song asking me if I
had heard it. The song was called “Good,
Good Father” by House Fires. So I told her I would listen not realizing
that there was a message there just for me.
The next day I got a text from mum that I was to call because papa had bought a
van with me in mind. All of a sudden a rush of emotion hit me. I began to cry
uncontrollable. I spent the next part of the day mediating on how much my
Heavenly Father loves me. Wow! He had done it again and gave me a message to
help me with my issues and to take me from the lies I tended to believe to the
ultimate truth.
Now please keep in mind that I hadn't even called them to confirm the message
about the van. It really didn't matter if I got the van or not, that wasn't the
message or the focus. Many of us focus on God as a tooth fairy, like I put a
prayer under my pillow and expect what I want to magically appear. This was not
about that. This was about my good, good Father. So I immediately went to You
Tube and looked up the song. Well I became unglued, a puddle of nothing on the
floor as I listened to lyrics that said "You are a good, good Father
that's who You are" and "You love me that's who I am".
This was the timely message He wanted to use to again wash away any remaining
false identity that had been caused by my daddy issues. The Fathers love
surrounded me like one of those bear hugs I would get from Papa and I felt so
loved and safe and accepted.
This feeling was hugging me for two days and I hadn't been able to call my
parents because I just wanted to stay there for a moment as I was writing this
story. But then another beautiful thing sealed the message.
My birthday was a few months earlier and as always my mum had sent me a gift
but unfortunately I hadn't received it. It had gotten re-routed and when I got
home after the two days there was the gift.
I opened it and the most beautiful purple silk scarf with purple and
mint green butterflies all over it dropped to the floor as my tears fell on it.
Again I was overwhelmed with a cocktail mix of hormones that were stirred up by
the multiple emotions that had begun flowing.
Now to be able to fully understand the significance
you must understand what purple means to me and what the butterfly symbolizes.
Purple is my favorite color and my reminder that I am royalty. Mint green was
my reminder that He makes all things new. Butterflies are a symbol of
transformation in stages. I teach about the butterfly effect and help others
through their transformation process.
All of these visuals and the reminder that my mum is constantly thinking about
me and she celebrates the day I was fearfully and wonderfully made, caused me
to again remember my good, good Father.
Now I love a good sermon, Ted talk, speech or inspirational book on change like
everyone else but this was God speaking to me in my language. This group of
events that some might consider randomly coincidental, was in truth just
another inspirational visual message that was changing my picture of who I
thought I was into who He says I am.
My daddy issues can never determine my future they are being eradicated by
love, the perfect love of my good, good Father.
Charmaine Hinds May 2015
Sunday, February 15, 2015
I am No Longer a Slave
I am no longer a slave
Chains of bondage holding me captive
Keeping me from the liberty to run free...
unchained
Unseen barriers of fear paralyzing a
thought of escape
Will I surrender to be a servant locked
behind imaginary bars?
I am no longer a slave...
Yet this generational pain demands to be
felt and paid for
Though my mother was born free and my
father was liberated
The overseer of my torture has become my
mind stuck in the past
So I hang on the tree as a memorial to my
ancestors
Though I am no longer a slave...
True freedom has tortured my soul
As I relinquish to be controlled by a master of my choosing
Why this yoke? when in ultimate truth
My captors have left the doors unlocked
Yet I am no longer a slave...
Are there keys that release me from this
paradigm?
Words that break the hold of these
shackles
No more self cruelty with memories that
terrorize
Just a prayer that I would be
recognized
I can not be sold for I am not for sale!
I am no longer a slave...
I am no longer a slave...
Set free, liberated, unlocked no fear, no
boundaries, no jailer,
I command all darkness and evil tormenting me to leave
I shall survive, my people thrive, I will stay alive
Freedom flowing in my veins
Freedom flowing in my veins
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